Letter From God

I just received my letter from God.   This is a letter that last summer, on June 29,2010 I wrote to God.  I poured my heart out to Him on paper. Some things I prayed for and wrote to God about were struggles with loving myself and thinking I was ever good enough to be used by Him.  I wrote to God to break me of ME.  I wrote that I would remember that MY GOD only wants good for me, not bad.  I asked God to give me mercy on myself, and that I would see myself through His eyes...not mine. On the other side of the paper, I wrote a letter from God to me- What I would want to hear from God, and having NO idea where I would be at this point in my life. This is what it says:

     2 Timothy 1:7
Dear Caryn,
Come to Me.  Call out to  Me! I am ALWAYS here.  I will never leave you, or forsake you.  My love for you is unconditional.  My grace will never run out-Cry out to me in your time of need.  I am never disappointed or angry with you!  I LOVE YOU!  You are MY DAUGHTER!  Spend time on your knees, talk to ME-Keep our relationship open.  LISTEN for me to speak to talk to you.  I will always love you!
                                                                                                GOD
      Isaiah 61
                                                     BE STILL AND KNOW
                                                        In the Name of Jesus

 2 Timothy 1:7 has only become one of my favorite scriptures from the NLT in the last 2 months or so.  Only MY GOD would know where I would be in my life, right now as I received this letter!  I had NO idea I would be blogging.  No idea that my prayer would be to "BE STILL AND KNOW".  No idea the changes in my heart God would be doing.  No idea what changes in my lifestyle God would be doing. Only MY GOD knew that I would be at this place of open-ness with Him, that my main prayer is to listen for Him, and to be open to what He says!   And only MY GOD would know that the blog He had me start would be called " finally being still and knowing".....
I was in a very sad, lonely, burdened, and broken place last summer. My dad had died in April, under the worst possible circumstances in the world, in my opinion.  I was left with regret, anger, questions, guilt, shame...and many other negative emotions I didn't know what to do with.  And only MY GOD knew what I needed and when I would be open to Him.  And the wonderful part is, MY GOD just waited there for me patiently, with outstretched arms and a love so great and a mercy for me and grace for me that I cannot even understand.   MY GOD knew then the changes He was going to bring to me. And MY GOD, waited for me....no questions asked.  He just never gave up.  And MY GOD is with me right now, with a presence so strong I can feel it in this very room as I'm typing this! 
MY GOD....WOW.....what a peace it is knowing.