Coming Clean

It hasn't been my intention to only use this blog as a time to share when things are going well.  I want to also share when things aren't going great and when I haven't had my "light bulb" moments from God.  I have talked to so many people who this blog has touched in one form or another.  And that, in itself, is amazing to me.  How MY GOD can use me to reach others....it really is baffling to me at times.  I don't think it's something that anyone really gets used to....being used by God....GOD....to reach others!  Really, just think about that! WOW.   Now, on the flip side, I feel I need to be accountable to people who read this.   This is my way of having to be accountable to myself and others for what I say and do.  I don't even know where to start with this blog....so, what comes next will be straight from the heart, and from MY GOD.  I pray before every blog....and this is my accountable part...good or bad, what HE says, goes in......
I have been convicted in the last week or so.  I have not been faithful in prayer (or praise) as I should be.  Therefore, my week was full of anxiety, bad moods, short temper, a ton of "oh man, why did I just say that" moments, worry, doubt and countless other consequences for taking my eyes off of Him.  I have no idea when we will learn....it's such an' easy concept.  KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE "PRIZE" .....GOD!  So, as I'm sitting here typing this, once again, I am reminded of the Grace of MY GOD! Never ending Grace.  I am also guilty of being the girl who prays for those that don't treat us kindly, or does things that irritate us, or people we don't like.  That's what we're supposed to do, right?  Pray for those who aren't blessed being as perfect as we are. Oh, how wrong I am.  I should be on my knees, begging MY GOD to fill me with a love like His, and grace, a never-ending grace.  Just like the grace that has been abundantly poured out on me....day after day.  So, my prayer is this: "God I pray for you to fill me with a love, like no other love.  God, I pray, in Your Name, that you fill me with a spirit of Grace upon others.  People owe me NOTHING, God.  I pray, God, that you remind me of this daily.  I pray God that you never let me forget the grace you give to me daily, when the everyone I know knows I don't deserve it.  I pray, right now, God, that You use me to help others find You, I want people to know the meaning of YOUR GREAT NAME!  I want others to see the change in me.  I want to help the weak find strength in YOU.   I want hungry souls to find peace and the fatherless to find the rest that You  have given me. God, continue to speak to me and thru me......"

And, so while I'm "coming clean", I may as well go ahead and tell you all that the training for my 5K has come to an abrupt stop.  I did, however, do a bunch of planning for it.  I have learned that I am not one who enjoys walking or running for that matter, outside.  Therefore....a treadmill is on the way.  So, give me a break....I can't do anything without a treadmill! Healthy eating is still on track, though. Also, I have 2, yes 2, 5K's in mind to do.  So, give me a little break....in the words of RUN DMC...It's Tricky!  ( Oh, yeah...I just broke out the RUN DMC)  :)   
I know this is a bit long, but I also wanted to share some of my new favorite songs with you.  If you love music as I do, there is nothing better than an awesome worship song:  Manifesto, by The City Harmonic, and All I Need, by JJ Heller.
And finally, I have a request....if it's been a long time since I have seen you, and we see each other out somewhere, and we stop to talk....please hug me (don't just come and sneak up on me and give me a hug out of the blue, that would freak me out!) .  It's something else I'm trying to work on.  I ran into a precious soul today, that I haven't seen in over a year....and I didn't hug her when I talked to her....it's nagged me all day that I didn't do that!