Cycle-Pit-Jumper

I have never EVER been more certain than right now, that satan is a disgusting, slimy, slithering snake.  His primary purpose is to kick us when we're down and get us as far away from our Savior as possible.  He wants us so deep in "the" pit, that we think, "this is just how it's going to be, this is how it's always been, this is what is meant for me".  I am here to tell you, IT is a LIE.   It is only Satan trying to bring you down right now!   He is trying to keep you in whatever pit you are in, whether you were kicked into the pit, whether you were pushed into the pit or whether you just jumped in...this is his plan.   He is trying to get you to feel so awful about yourself, to get you to start with the "poor me" sob story, which will only lead to self pity and anger.  He is doing whatever he can, using whatever he knows will just knock you on your tale....to bring us as far away from our Savior as He can.   Because he thinks that when we are so far down, when we feel totally destroyed, that it is safe for him to move onto someone else and attack.
  I have learned (and by learned I really mean I was struck in the face with this yesterday morning at 8:17am) that we can NEVER be destroyed....we can be knocked down....but NEVER can we be destroyed with God and the Holy Spirit!
  I  had NO idea that I was in a pit. I put the girls on the bus yesterday morning, after a very bad morning with Ella. I walked back into the house, crying, I was DONE! Something needed to change, I needed to do something. What was wrong with me?
I sat on the couch and I kept thinking, "I need to be in the Word, I need Him now, this minute, more than I have in a very long time".  But I didn't even know where to look.  So, I looked up my friend, Beth on the internet.  (Some of you may call her Beth Moore, but her and I are now on first name basis....well, I'm sure we would be if she knew I existed.)   I go to Wednesday's with Beth Moore on Lifetoday.org.  James Robison and Beth are talking about pits.
  So, I'm sitting here, listening so intently on what she is saying, because that's what you do with, Beth, you intently listen, and it hit me!  Holy flippin cow.....I am in a pit!  Not only am I in a pit, but I jumped in!  And I jumped in because that is what I do....I am a cycle-pit-jumper! 
I have successfully jumped into one of the same pits that I have been in many (so many) times before.  A pit can be any situation that we think will never get better, that "it is what it is", anything that makes us feel like we can't get our feet on the ground, and anything or anyone that makes us lose our vision of God.  I was so frustrated with life in general yesterday morning.  I was so done with the way that things had been going.  And yesterday morning, I realized, this is God.  This is God making me so miserable in this pit that I will do whatever it takes to get out and not come back again.  God was getting my attention.  I haven't been having a relationship with Him, I haven't been living in Him.  Instead, I went pit-jumping and needed to be rescued like only He can rescue.  I was in bondage because I wasn't fully trusting God.  So, I got on my knees and I did these 3 things:
1-  I cried out for Help.  I cried to be saved.  I cried out for His mercy, once again. 
2-  I repented.  I asked for forgiveness for not fully trusting, for the un-love in my heart, for not being forgiving of things that have happened in the past, for wanting so much from someone that is just not capable of giving what I need. I told God I was angry.  I was angry that He didn't give me something that I thought I should have had.  And I repented of so much more......
3-  I consented to God.  I totally consented to all of the good He has for me.  I opened my arms and my heart....just waiting for all of the wonderful things He has in store for me.  I am waiting.....

A pit doesn't have to be an addiction, or something clearly marked with a "THIS IS YOUR PIT" sign.   I challenge you to get with God.  On your knees, in complete humility.  That's what I did.  And I had the ugly cry going on, too!  Go to Him and ask Him to reveal what your pit may be.  Whether you jumped in, or whether you were born into it....it doesn't matter.   It's not what God has for us.